Depression, food disorers, self-destructive and self-injuring behaviour, obsessive-compulsive tendency... Always trying to avoid those pills that make me think slower. They say I'm way too smart, but I'm sure I'm stupid, because I can't get the meaning of staying alive one more day.
Socializing is as exhausting as giving blood. People assume we loners are misanthropes, just sitting thinking, ‘Oh, people are such a bunch of assholes,’ but it’s really not like that. We just have a smaller tolerance for what it takes to be with others. It means having to perform. I get so tired of communicating.
Anneli Rufus (via airplanes)